Still not enough..

I actually thought I am strong.. but I am not..

I used to eat for the baby, now I lost the reason why should I do that.

I am still sad and crying all the times.

Thanks for those who care and sympathy leaves comment, sms me, and many who called me but I couldn't pick up the phone.
Afraid that my tear will fall in front of you..I'm so sorryyy..

I was staying in my room since I got back from hospital. Not step out from my room since then.
I dont want my sister seeing me cry...

Mohd rafi called me force me to eat since I did not eat anything since got back from hospital... Like i said, I lost the reason to eat..

It made me more sadder when thinking about that I already bought all the baby stuff. Clothes. Towel. Flask. Baby bath, mitten socks, and etc... Now I'm thinking about giving away all the stuff to someone else.. Looking at it make me sadder than ever...

I'm sorry... I'm just really....really sad.....

p/s : My kind supervisor cancelled my presentation tomorrow and he giving me a leave until I fit to do my work again. Thanks to him..

p/s/s : I will be warded tomorrow at 12pm at Specialist Hospital Seremban.