Embarassing moment..

Okeh, uols tengok ONE IN A MILLION last night??

I'm a bit ashame to admit this.. But, I think I LIKE TOMOK..

You know, what he did for Rihanna Song is genius!!

Akak suka uollss... OK, may be he is not the best singer ever, tapi lagu umbrella tu jadi Best kan??

So, CD Owner : LEt's vote for TOMOK, orang tempat ko...

Hari tidak la tension mana...

Okeh.. Aku sedikit tension di sini.

Supervisor aku suruh tukar coding lagi. Pitam okeh!!. Dia x tau ke aku ni terkial2 nak tulis coding program baru?

Kedua:

DRAGON BALL EVOLUTION ADALAH SUCKS!!

Bukan je jalan citer dia lain dari Manga/komik dia. Character dalam tu pon lain..

Ok. I am a big fan of Dragon Ball manga okeh. Aku dah baca from cover to cover dari Buku 1 sampai 43. I saw Goku dari dia kecik sampai dia tua dapat cucu.

Tapi movie ni sangat dissapointed. And what's wrong with Chi chi asyik tunjuk Breast je dalam movie ni?? Nampak cheap and desperate okeh.

ANd the Most Disspointed thing is... kenapa?? Kenapa yamcha X hensem?? Aku keciwa mcm nak hentak kepala kat dinding. Yamcha adalah sangat hensem dalam manga/komik... Tapi ini......
Kepada die hard fan Dragon Ball........... Sila jangan tengok... Nnt uolls tengok sambil mengalirkan air mata mcm akak...**larikkkk..

P/s My Second favourite manga is Slam Dunk. Mitsui adelah sangat Hensem. Dan Sakuragi Hanamichi adalah sangat LUCU dan Rokawa sangat COOL...

Tips of the day!

Note to self : Tips of living alone after miscarriage:

1. Try not to think as much that I am living alone.

2. Try not to imagine cerita-cerita ngeri dalam kepala.. Especially bila tengok berita tentang orang mati kena bunuh kat dalam rumah..

3. Try not to read anything about pregnancy or married people or baby or perhaps, love story.

4. Try not to watch Keliwon every thursday > you'll end up sit at the corner of the bed and sleep with the light open.

5. Try to spend as much as time on going out. > Even if you got nothing to buy in shopping complex. Pretend that you have something to buy by looking at the stuff from rack to rack.

6. Try to sms or called friend as much as you could > which not relevan since I dont have friends who is FREE all day.. like ME.

7. Try not to think yourself as a LOSER. Think of LONE RANGER. >thanks fiza for the word!

8. Try not to think youself as Bernasib Malang.. Anyway, living alone? what worse can it be kan?? >> Ok, kata2 sedapkan hati..

9. Read as much as possible. Dont read anymore fiction story books!.. Once you start, you can never STOP!

10. DO your RESEARCH!!!

11. Try to go back to kampung as much as possible..> even if you can't see your husband, you still can see your mom right? It's a good thing..

12. Try to chat a lot in Yahoo Messenger.

13. Try to think 10 things to do when both of you living together. Make a list in your diary if you can.

14. Try to think the good? or best? memory when you are together > Stop playing the memory of being in UK in your brain. It will not helping you!

15. Just STOP HOPING for miracle to come.. This is not a cinderella movie or snow white or Marry a rich man..

To the finishing line-**

Akak dah abes baca uolls buku yang akak beli semalam... How???

Bukannya akak xde keje okeh akak baca buku2 tu.. tapi sebab akak kena kira timing. So kena on and off laptop.. ***Haiyohhh.. alasan semata-mata..**larikkk.....

Abaikan okeh, entry luka lara akak semalam tu... Lepas Mohd Rafi sms akak.. Layan akak.. pastu akak dah happy balik..

Biasala uollsss... akak kan over reacting jeh...

Akak ingat akak x nak la pantang 100 hari... Kesian uollls dengan laki akak tuh..
Dah la masa pregnant aritu akak tak teringin langsung nak bermesra jua bergulingan dengan dia..

Lagipon akak ngeri okeh baca magazine..paper... ramai husband curang masa wife dalam pantang..

So, berapa hari akak patut pantang???

40 hari?? 60 hari?? 90 hari?? atau 100 hari???

Kalau akak dapat husband2 yang curang time bini dia dalam pantang tu.. akak potong **tottt** dia...

Pedulik hape akak masuk paper Front page ke hape.. Yang penting akak puas gituuu...

Kau x saiko dangan akak nih???

Lagi satu akak ingat, akak nak start buat anak baru bulan 5 la uolllsss... Akak nak dia lahir bulan 1 gituuu... Untung2 sama tarikh lahir dengan Siti Nurhalija... Kaya okeh!!
Gituuuu kan verangan...

Apa2 pon semua rezeki tuhan yang bagi... Tapi akak dgn Mohd Rafi kena berusaha dgn lebih maju dan berdaya saing tinggi... Mungkin kena makan tonik banyak2???

T_T

Akak x tau la uolls.... Lately, I cry easily.. Mungkin sbb emotional instable after miscarriage kot..

Anyway, what worse could it be kan??

Tapi at least aku x la nangis depan orang kan?? Okeh, abaikan peristiwa selepas mendapat tahu aku kena gugurkan kandungan..



I only cry on front of Mohd Rafi.... Errrr... I guess...

First time masa baru2 bercinta. Dia suruh aku lipat telinga dia. Aku buat2 x boleh.. Then dia cakap,
'Ada sorang je boleh buat..'

Aku tanya, 'Siapa?'
'cheq'
Pastu aku terus nangis sampai dia terpaksa berenti tepi jalan nak tenangkan aku..
FYI, Cheq tu ex GF penang dia tu..


Second time: Lepas kawen. Aku stay kat rumah dia pastu dah la lama x jumpa kan? Pastu dia sibuk berbual dengan kawan dia kat luar rumah. Padahal hari2 jumpa budak tu.. Aku nangis sorang2 dalam bilik. Lepas tu dia masuk bilik dia tengok aku tengah nangis dia gelabah. Dia amek kepala aku baringkan atas peha dia untuk tenangkan..



Third time : After misscarriage. Sebelum tido. Tiba2 teringatkan baby dan nangis. Pastu dia peluk aku dan kesat air mata sambil cakap;
'Dah la tu.. U nangis pon dia x datang balik...'



4th time : masa dia nak balik JB aritu. Dia gosok2 bahu aku. Gosok2 kepala nak tenangkan..



Okeh..itu yang depan dia.. kat belakang dia lagi banyak aku nangis okeh..





Masalahnya.... kenapa yang aku suka sangat nangis sekarang nih??? Or to be exact, sejak kawen??



Arent we suppose to be happy when we are married?